& I can’t sleep.
I’ll keep you my dirrrty little secret, don’t tell anyone or you’ll be just another regret ;)
I feel sad..
Although I’m happy he’s moving on with his life, I feel as though I’m loosing one of my best friends… like ever. It kinda hurts, cause I mean I rarely ever see him nowadays, but I feel as though once he literally moves away.. I’ll never see him, & I’ll never get to talk to him.. It hurts. I don’t like this one bit, it’s as though I just met this great friend, & he’s slowly just fading out of my life.. Well not fading, more like unintentionally distancing himself. I am really proud of him though, he deserves the best.. So I’m not gonna mention any of this to him, I’ll just continue being happy for him.
Some people, just in general need to grow up. I’m over it, I have no time in my hectic life from your bullshit, or any of these stupid games people wanna play. I’m doin’ me.. & if you’ve got a problem with that, you can go fuck yourself. ♥
I got this icebox where my heart used to be..
since tumblr isn’t liking me right about now..
Here’s the short version:
OMG: It’s almost 4am, can’t sleep for the life of me. So instead I think I’ll just write about the “wonderful” night I had.. Let’s start off at the beginning. Today, started off much like any other day, I woke up, had breakfast, & chilled at home. Although I got stuck having to back up files from Squirt’s desktop & try to figure out what’s wrong with it I had a good morning/afternoon none the less.. I watched The Royal Tenebaums for the millionth time today, gahh I love this movie so much. After that I hung out, then got ready to hit the bux. I left home happily awaiting work.. Expecting to have a short fun shift with angie & angel. Sadly, this was not the case what so ever.
I got to work a bit early & soon after realized stephen was the acting shift. Not that there’s any major problem with that however, he just kept pushing my buttons today. On top of having to work with him, nothing had been done. I truly mean it NOT A THING had been done, leading me to think that he did this all on purpose, but whatever.. Alongside his annoyance & all the extra work, I also got to carry the majority of angel’s workload as well. Apparently he doesn’t seem to understand what it takes to close a store. I think all in all work wise it was just a horrible night, stephen kept disappearing, angel didn’t do much, I rang guests, made drinks, closed my bar & the other half of angels lobby seeing as he couldn’t stay long enough to do so himself. grrrrr this night was just UNPLEASANT!
Despite all the “wonderful” things occuring to me at the bux, a few people did make me smile today, Davey apologized for the notsosweet text he sent this morning, ronald came into visit me, I got a call & visit from carlos; he also brought me dinner.. yumm. He made me pasta & garlic bread :D Oh & well the guys made me feel pretty good, with marky mark calling & texting me & all my boys chattin’ it up on the bb I couldn’t help but smile while I still felt like I was drowning at work. There actually was this moment when stephen was gone, angel was no where to be found, I had a line forming, drinks piling up, & all I wanted to do was cry. However, I made it out alive. Looking back on it though, I think it was actually worse (not better) than I’m making it all sound. Now if only I could actually get some sleep, that might make this not so great night, a simple memory.
I just typed about a 5paragraph post & it totally dissappeared.