Seeing all these posts of everyone buying/playing Bioshock Infinite is kinda bumming me out. IT LOOKS SO BADASS!!!!! D’: But it’s alright I’ll be buying it soon enough after Wonder Con & Depeche Mode tickets! :3

I don’t want to do anything today. I just want to go back to bed!

But I suppose I’ll hang out at the park for a bit before I pick up Squirt from class. Then I have to stop by Abue’s for a while before I’m free!

I see a Santa Fe salad, snap peas with hummus &&& The Colbert Report’s Hobbit Week episodes in my near future!!!!

I’m wide awake. 

WHY?!?!?!!??! 

I should have started wrapping presents (yes those very same presents I’ve been talking about wrapping for days now) as soon as I got home. Instead I got onto tumblr. 

It wasn’t a mistake to come on I just lost track of time and it is now 3:50am & I need to go to sleep. Like, now! I’ve got a few things I’ll need to do in the morning & I’ll be pretty cranky if I don’t get any sleep. Ohh, & needless to say I’ll be in extra need of coffee. 

Welp. I’ve reached that point where my posts have absolutely no meaning. 

I’m just rambling now.. about nothing. 

GAH! I still can’t sleep though. My mind is filled with too many Thorin/Bilbo feels! 

I just need to go watch The Hobbit again. 

& perhaps take a nap. 

& wrap presents. 

& clean up my room. 

I’m an emotional wreck & I’ve still got so much to do today. Guess it’s time to take a long breath, pull myself together & just move forward.

Life is a total cunt sometimes.

I have like 5-billion pictures from my camera & phone that I’ve totally lagged it on uploading.. so tonight is THE night. I’ve have two venti sized cups of coffee & am ready to get this done! 

I’m going to start off with all the phone pictures. Then the ones left over on my point & shoot. THEN I’ll get around to uploading & editing all the ones from mah rebel! ^.^ 

I am in for a very LONG night. 

I’m stuck going to work tonight when I’d much rather be sleeping.. but then again wouldn’t I always rather be sleeping!

I have to shower & get dressed within the next 30 minutes so I can drive down to the marina on time. BOO! I’ve yet again fallen behind on posting all of my pictures, not to mention the fact that I haven’t even started to upload the one’s taken on my rebel.. [which I have yet to give a proper name] >.< 

I don’t want to go to worrrrrkk. ・(/Д`)・

I’m sleepy. 

I’ve almost finished my soy chai latte.

My hair is still wet. 

& I want to go home. 

My little vacation is over. 

I’ve gotta start getting ready for work now. No more fics, no more movies or relaxing in bed. I have to be at work in about an hour & a half. BOO! It was fun while it lasted, but I wish it lasted so much longer! I didn’t even get to make it to T since I’m going to work ALL weekend long. D:

I might however be able to head to the parks for a quick little trip on Monday morning. Just long enough to get a good Disney fix! Hahah! Until then I’ll just have to listen to plenty of Disney tunes & hope my withdrawals aren’t tooo bad.. lol! 

Stop it.

(´Д｀。) You have been pulling these sorts of tricks on me all week long & I’m gettting pretty annoyed. When I’m supposed to be alert & awake instead I’m half asleep & exhausted. Then once I have the opportunity to go to bed I’m more wired then a cheap hooker on speed. Seriously tho. STOP IT.

I miss my sleep.

I want my sleep.

I need my sleep.

Why are you torturing me so? Are you trying to get back at me for something? If so I apologize & hope we can move past this love hate relationship we seem to have going on..

Sincerely,
Your ever so tired body!

(o´Д`) zzz

Seiriously tho. (ノдヽ) I went to bed @ 5am & woke up an hour ago to fix an error my insurance company made. Now I have to go to pay a couple of bills before I hopefully can come back home & take a nap. Then it’s off to another night @ the Marina! Fuuuuuuuuck.

I need to move out already, all of these family issues are far too much for me to handle. I hate consistently being stressed out when I spend more than a couple of hours here at “home”. 

le sigh. 

Guess I’ll just have to tough it out until I have more saved up.  

It’s appreciated. 

There are certain moments in my life when I feel like I’m spreading myself a wee bit to thin. I’m no engulfed in work since I’m only per diem, & I’m not in school at the moment. However, I try my hardest to help out the people I love in which ever way I can. That is mainly in regards to le boyfriend & Squirt; although my little rant does no concern them. It has to do with everyone else. I know I should do things & no expect anything in return & for the most part I don’t, but when I try my darndest to make something easier for someone & they then through it in my face saying it wasn’t good enough or it wasn’t to the specific liking’s it just irks me. It makes me want to stop trying.

I guess all I’m trying to say is I’d love to hear the words thank you just once for the hundred things I do a day. 

Today was an ok day, I got to spend lots of time with le boyfriend as well as my grandma. As for the rest of it… blah! I hate having to be the only [excluding Squirt] adult in the family! It’s such a pain in the arse. 

This morning I awoke to the sound of my mothers cries & screams over the phone. Well, she was talking to my aunt about some crap that’s going on with my dad. The same crap that is always going on. It is pretty annoying having to listen to that all morning long while you’re trying to get back to your “sweet dreams”. I couldn’t take it anymore so I went to see what was wrong. BIG mistake because as I should have known she turned on me. GAHHHHHHHH!!!! Why? Why, must I be the one to deal with these situations. Oh, right. Because she’s my mother & I suppose I have to. Welp, I did. I went to the drugstore & picked up her prescriptions only to come home to more arguments & hateful words. So in the end I just left. 

I spent my entire day either out or @ Abue’s house; just to avoid being home. 

Welcome to my life.